Another Day

You say you’ve had many lonely nights you didn’t sleep Just remembering endless painful fights
Or push aside those insecurities, at least You said in your mind it was always me oOr so you thought
Now you fear those feelings that you didn’t see I had my life, though you were always near
You took my presence for granted When I assured you that I would always care

So now you call me on the phone or you visit me when I am home all alone
You soft spoken words in my ear telling me why It’s me you are wanting near
Maybe something was left unsaid emotions caught up spinning ‘round and ‘round your head
If I misled you the wrong way I am sorry. What other words could I have said

Why did you hold it all inside Were you afraid of saying goodbye
Why did you wait until I was gone Why did you save it for another day

Why did you hold it all inside Were you afraid of saying goodbye
Why did you wait until I was gone Why did you save it for another day

Canvas

She’s been staring at her canvas For quite some time. Still she sees only vacancy And no reason to brush a line
A re-lit cigarette, a glass of wine And tears falling from her face. A memory, pain gone away The regrets linger and remain

She left her canvas vacant For much too long they say
Her thoughts were left incomplete And to all, always a mystery

The hands she once depended on Hold her back from saving face. She pled for no heroics Whispered softly a final grace
The clock is ticking louder now Than it ever has before. She got her invitation Leading her to a well lit door

She left her canvas vacant For much too long they say
Her thoughts were left incomplete And to all, always a mystery

Certainty

Why have we grown apart, From those who love us so?
Two alone, with a broken heart Their pain we’ll never know.

Am I even in her thoughts? Just maybe out of mind
Rather than deny we’re apart Or look for answers she’ll never find?
The anger behind her stares Tell me tales from deep within
Our hearts drifted apart Oh god please forgive our sins?

Are you even on his mind? Or has the distance between you
Left only him to now define What he had yet never knew?
Deep passion in your eyes That mystifies him somehow
Yet to me clearly explain How we feel about us now.

It must be our certainty. It must be our love.
It must be lonesomeness that allowed us to rise above……
All the uncertainty and all the lack of love.
From our lives we live apart, not individually.

I know you’re in my heart And every breath I take is for you.
But are we only thinking Of what’s best for you and I?
Have we so soon forgotten all the promises and the vows?
We sacrificed, not knowing, to live alone loving someone else.

It must be our certainty. It must be our love.
It must be lonesomeness that allowed us to rise above……
All the uncertainty and all the lack of love.
From our lives we live apart, not individually.

Why have we grown apart, From those who love us so?
Two alone, with a broken heart Their pain we’ll never know.

Cookie Jar

Gonna find yourself a way. Gonna fly someday to the place that you belong.
The high that they forbid you made your curiosity want more to see.
A life inside you declining. Or your mind unwinding to your soul one.
Woke in a broken dream asleep. Cookie crumb sheets and a mouth full of cavities.

So high up on that shelf. Out of your reach but on your mind.
Voices told you feigned sights never seen blind.

Someday you’ll find the lost time. And questions to all of your answers.
Always had to climb, listening to your mime And lived like a dying maple tree.
Separated from your world, priceless jewel Confined t o a famine mountainside.
Hard to get inside. No reason to abide Nor deprive yourself of compromise.

So high up on that shelf. Out of your reach but on your mind.
Voices told you feigned sights never seen blind.

Why weren’t you strong enough? You’d still be here my friend.
Why couldn’t you keep your hands Away from the stained glass cookie jar?

In memory of Shannon Hoon, Blind Melon

How Much

All I had to do Is open up my mind To hear all those words
You curiously spoke As I carefully listened
I didn't blink an eye I only felt your warm heart
Beating right in time with mine

Do you feel that you see A different side of me
From inside your soul Or did you feel my thoughts
Did my soft spoken words Interpret silent cries
Of my torn emotional love Of what I feared I left behind

I want to show you how much Your every word means to me
And I want you to feel it Just how much you really mean to me

Lingering and listening I can not find the words
You heard me. You know what My heart desperately wanted more
It's been quite some time that I've been denied To open my eyes and see you
Rather than close them oh so tight And only imagine your every smile

I Have Enough

So she headed out in an 88 Chevy. She had it loaded down ‘til the tires were heavy.
All the broken dreams from the life that was hers now tied back with strings.
She wondered what they all were now. And she said if I had enough money, what I couldn’t do.
If I had enough time, what I couldn’t do. If I had enough beauty would that have kept you?
If its not the road dirty river before her. Current’s strong and slow. She wasn’t much of a swimmer.
She liked to say she knew. The first years were good ones. He built a wall from clues and didn’t block out the sun.
And she said I wish I had enough money, what I couldn’t do. If I had enough time, what I couldn’t do.
If I had enough beauty would that have kept you? So she headed out in her 88 Chevy.
The rain kept falling down ’til it broke the levy. River black and white carried her in its hands now.
All the fears inside washed clean from her head now. And she said I think I have enough money, I really do.
Think I have enough time. I think I have enough beauty to do without you.

I Believe

Some say time is a blessing And miles apart can spark a flame
Love’s a game of guessing Imagination to keep me sane
In your heart it builds on In your mind so you can choose
Senses sharp like a razors edge Girl you cannot lose……..no
No………Girl you cannot, cannot lose

Though I’m alone I see you In my mind where I believe
And I know I will find you In my heart where I believe
I believe

If I could see that far I’d stare in your eyes, never say goodbye
So hard to find that someone So many hopes I realize
Down the road that we must follow Many faces without names
What dream do I believe My destiny was the night you came

Though I’m alone I see you In my mind where I believe
And I know I will find you In my heart where I believe
I believe

I Don’t Know

Never saw eye to eye. I believed all the lies. I was so much different. Exclusive yet denied.
Somehow and someday. Someone else’s memory. A page in a history book for what I gave, not took.
I chose a path not wise. led me to the other side. One way alley to paradise. My mind I’ll never find.

Don’t leave me here in this state of fear. I can’t comprehend. I can’t reach the end.

Is this confusion or pain. This feeling of illusion am I insane? I don’t know. I don’t know.

My eyes see black and white. Hard crimes, they gave me life. No one dares to visit here. Victimized and full of fear.
If I could, I know I should. I’d return to my childhood. Those voices in my head. Face down on my concrete bed.
Therapy to recovery, found me but I can’t be. I don’t want to live here. I want to dream eternally.
No one knows and no one cares. The way I choose to go not afraid of fear.
I have no morals so ridicule my mind. Time and time again I’m a loser in a bind.
Your vulgar bitching. I don’t need advice. It’s my way or nothing. Don’t need to be precise.

Just Who I Was

This atmosphere soaks in to my skin. This hemisphere spinning round and round pulls me in.
Well over the horizon resting on the worlds curve. She thinks she might fly there and I’m still right here with her clothes and her words.
Beautiful. It was so beautiful to rest my head in your reflection. I knew just who I was.
Its not you she said. I just need a change. Its good with you. Something just needs to rearrange.
Well over the horizon resting on the worlds curve. I wish that I could fly there.
Where the sun holds hands and walks with the earth.
Beautiful. It was so beautiful to rest my head in your reflection.
I knew just who I was.

Labido

As I sit here gawking at insanity flashbacks of stories never told.
Words of sorrow just fictional pity. This orphan pressure. Why am I so cold?
Eyes watching you have no remorse. Tells til he cries his vagrancy.
Preaching horror of 3rd world divorce. A ship in the ocean with no buoyancy.
You mumble a tale of suicide Steve. I choose not to hear or see you views.
A lady with wine deadly destine to be. Narcotics and challenge her favorite two.
Rick’s authority says yes or no. Sliding broken bottles end to end.
A sure jumper will be here too, lecturing nonsense yet a message he’ll send.

Moonlight will shine til the clouds come in. These people will come and they will sin.
I’ve spoken my mind and taken the falls. Through these eyes I’ve heard it all.

Now the heat’s gleaming on a highway glare. Wind chilling the new road I pave.
Mind on the right, left I veer. Darkness ahead looks like a cave.
Can’t be late, got nowhere to go. Adrenaline youth with a six speed grind.
Got that feeling someone’s watching me. Wondering eyes in the drivers seat.
No governor tells me what to be. Heavy on the pedal can you feel my heat?
Little Miss Holley on my 454. Pushing and rocking, chirping in 3rd.
Zero to 60 from this four barrel hoar. Rubber’s a smokin’, I’m high as a bird.

Lucid Grey

A new meaning to me: contradicting The image of black: a pearls only flaw
Only memories remain: even after the rains Now hailing on me: what I never saw
Clouds moving past: casting shadows at last This fire needs air: to remain a burning flame
The tide’s deafening: moon’s shining vast Smothered by change: but whom do you blame

Like a loud lullaby Between black and all the white
Deceiving as a social lie I am lucid gray

Storm battered the shore: flooding my feeble mind Charity doctor please: salt away the fearless sea
Recklessly torn: between the darkest times This battle will end: without a victory
Illusions of sunlight: far across the land Hot dessert sands: iced in scorching gray
Blackened by the pain: needing only some white Here’s my final chance: can’t let it just fade away

Like a loud lullaby Between black and all the white
Deceiving as a social lie I am lucid gray

Moonlight will shine til the clouds come in. These people will come and they will sin.
I’ve spoken my mind and taken the falls. Through these eyes I’ve heard it all.

NOT SO FAR AWAY

How I feel nobody knows. Only memories to remind me.
A heart of gold that he showed, Warmth to me I will always hold.
Always gave the things he earned. Gave his wealth to the rich.
Don’t close your eyes he told me so. Life’s someone will always hurt you.
To see you go was so hard. Just can’t seem to move on.
My mind is lost my soul is torn, a place in my heart he’s always earned.
High above me yet oh so close. I can still hear his voice.
Late at night while I’m still dreaming. Thoughts of you give my life real meaning.

You’re not so far away. You’re still here with me. I know you’re not so far away. Why did this have to be?

That night I was all alone. Heard the news that you were gone.
A darkened room is all I had. My mind and heart sincerely sad.
Passed away someone I adored Seemed close yet much further away.
I’ll never forget you I swear. Memories of you will always be there.

You’re not so far away. You’re still here with me. I know you’re not so far away. Why did this have to be?

Nothing More

All alone now except for your voice Your voice still in my head
I’m thinking, thinking about you About those words I should’ve said
All alone now and you’re not knowing Not know how I really feel
And I wonder were my thoughts heard Were they seen or did I not reveal

I want nothing more than for you to know How I feel about you
I want nothing more than for you to know It’s me. It’s me that’s loving you

I feel like I’ve been given An opportunity that once was a dream
And destiny, destiny delivered To be felt not only seen
True love’s creation of two souls Two souls searching to be one
And now that I’ve found you My souls searching is finally done

I want nothing more than for you to know How I feel about you
I want nothing more than for you to know It’s me. It’s me that’s loving you

On My Mind

I guess I thought it was just another ordinary night, In the sullen history book of my moon-lit written life.
Awake so late that night just my piano and my thoughts. Because I met a special woman and she’s always on my mind.
Her soft, dark brown hair and brilliant light brown eyes, Her smile just would not quit. She’s always on my mind.

I’m use to feeling like nobody knows my name. But she recognized my sincerity and we shared our separate ways.
Her words quickly chilled my soul. My senses aroused by her aroma. Now that I am here with her she’s always on my mind.

I didn’t just walk away from a heart that my mind adored. Didn’t know exactly what to say or the right choice of words.
Sometimes shadows mean more than the source of the reflection. Bonded minds should never fade, I say,
Now she’s here and always on my mind.

I’m use to feeling like nobody knows my name. But she recognized my sincerity and we shared our separate ways.
Her words quickly chilled my soul. My senses aroused by her aroma. Now that I am here with her she’s always on my mind.

Random Abstract

Unforeseen did it arise? Elusive so we could be. In a second I felt her love and her heart beating inside of me.

Underneath my canopy, I stood back: she called me near.
Our moon shines a melody I only wish that she could hear.

And every moment longing her, losing her: my primal fear.
Craving love and lust from her I want to feel her breathing near

A random encounter Abstract indeed.
Instantly I loved her. Our ocean, vast, I could see.

The one time in my life, I felt rain on my face
on a clear spring night without someone to embrace

Awake in her own bed, vivid dreams and memories.
Recalling what was left unsaid. Wondering how we could ever be

A random encounter Abstract indeed.
Instantly I loved her. Our ocean, vast, I could see.

Recognize Me

You held my hand ‘til I was old enough to walk. I guess I didn’t see it in your eyes
All the words I needed to hear. Then I spoke. I should’ve realized that when you looked at me

You didn’t see me. You didn’t recognize me

When it rained you’d send me on my way. To get your cigarettes from the local corner store
I was merely twelve years old. Didn’t know what to say. I should’ve realized then when you spoke at me

You didn’t hear me. You didn’t recognize me

I should’ve seen it in your eyes. I closed my mind. Didn’t recognize.
Should’ve heard it in your voice. I closed my life. You didn’t recognize me.

We drove for miles yet not a word was said. You sang along with the radio instead
Through the trees to the river you always led. I should’ve realized that when you looked at me

You didn’t see me. You didn’t recognize me

I tried so hard to be who you wanted me to be. I went to school. Washed my hands before every meal
But when I went to bed I tried to block it all out. I should’ve realized when you spoke to me

You didn’t see me. You didn’t recognize me

I should’ve seen it in your eyes. I closed my mind. Didn’t recognize.
Should’ve heard it in your voice. I closed my life. You didn’t recognize me.

You didn’t recognize me. Please recognize me

River Song

All my promises got sent down the river. All my promises washed away.
All my promises got sent down the river. All my promises washed away.
And I said Hey yeah la da da da da don’t know.
Hey yeah hey yeah. Hey yeah la da da da da don’t know. Hey yeah hey yeah.
All my sentiment got sent down the river. All my sentiment washed away.
All my sentiment got sent down the river. All my sentiment washed away.
And I said Hey yeah la da da da da don’t know.
Hey yeah hey yeah. Hey yeah la da da da da don’t know. Hey yeah hey yeah.
Madeline since you’ve been gone. At first I missed you so much.
But now I sleep so much better now. Oh yeah.
All my tenderness got sent down the river. All my tenderness washed away.
All my tenderness got sent down the river. All my tenderness washed away.
And I said Hey yeah la da da da da don’t know.
Hey yeah hey yeah. Hey yeah la da da da da don’t know. Hey yeah hey yeah.
Madeline since you’ve been gone. At first I missed you so much.
But now I sleep so much better now. I feel so much better now.
I’m just so much better now.

Sweater

Red letter day and the leaves are falling. Red Sunday night spinning all over the sky.
Your hands touching me and your voice is calling. These things carry so far on the chilly air.
And I’m not one who cares about material things but I admit it like warm clothes.
I know that you don’t believe when I say it so I thought I’d sing it so here it goes.

In your sweater I’m warm with your arms around me. In your sweater I’m warm with your arms around me.

The stitches are mixed up patterns but every stitch is a stitch in my soul.
And you certainly took your time with it and each moment was spent with love.
Come December when snow is blowing in and I’m out in it, I’m in so warm.
All I need is something functional and I’m grateful whatever the form.

In your sweater I’m warm with your arms around me. In your sweater I’m warm with your arms around me.

View

Don’t need a lullaby, no soft acoustic sphere No one to shut out the lights of fire’s fear
Just want some time all alone, by myself To stare out my window at what my life has dealt
A masterpiece for the moment, it won’t last forever Closed my eyes for a heartbeat, died and gone to heaven
All known good things don’t come for nothing ever Dreaming of my future I wake in a state of nine-eleven

Sitting, staring at a two sided story My shattered glass images fading away

What do I see? What do I believe? What’s my point of view?
What do I see? What do I believe? I believe my view.

Maybe on the other side, where my destiny lies Am I really here today or decomposing yesterday
Confusing changes concealing all the eyes I can still feel the stares burning though the lies
Left behind the souvenirs of what they stole from me Dignity and conspiracy, we don’t believe what we see

Sitting, staring at a two sided story My shattered glass images fading away

What do I see? What do I believe? What’s my point of view?
What do I see? What do I believe? I believe my view.

Whatever It May Be

Don’t want to close my eyes Don’t ever want to say goodbye to you
I just want to know you’re close to me Forever, whatever we may be.

I don’t want to fall asleep Not now. Not crying alone.
To dream of you lying here with me. But I’m alone again. And I am crying.
Can you hear my voice? A soft whisper “I love you.” A lullaby and a kiss goodnight.
I close my eyes and I see you in my dreams. Miles away but never off my mind.

You will be my love forever. Whatever we may be.
A beating drum that we can’t see On our ocean as we sail away.

Don’t want to close my eyes Don’t ever want to say goodbye to you
I just want to know you’re close to me Forever, whatever we may be.

It isn’t easy living this way oh no. Apart yet together living our own ways.
The emotions that more than words could say. We sacrifice and shed our tears to avoid the fear inside.

You will be my love forever. Whatever we may be.
A beating drum that we can’t see On our ocean as we sail away.

Don’t want to close my eyes Don’t ever want to say goodbye to you
I just want to know you’re close to me Forever, whatever we may be.

Don’t want to close my eyes Don’t ever want to say goodbye to you
I just want to know you’re close to me Forever, whatever we may be.

Wild Game

I’ve heard all the stories and I’ve heard all the lies. So many faces pass me but seems nobody says goodbye.
This world of streets and alleys full of lonely angry minds. Trapping like a pack of dogs leaving only bones behind.
No more innocents in politics. The truth so hard to find. Briefcase clowns and criminals, must we accept them any way?
Shotgun gangs and rivalries, they bring us misery. Money cops and nose candy fiends knocking street trash around.

Why do I open my eyes? Nobody else sees the pain inside.
Blind to agony and suffering. Through the eyes lies wild game.

The bitter chilling memories up and down my spine. A sun and moon revolving loud. We are wasting too much time.
My souls searching high and low grasping at final relief. Like the thousands dying hungry, all they get is grief.
No respect for the handicapped or elderly of our homes. We chew ‘em up and spit them out, nobody shakes their hands.
Midnight run to the candy-man to get a fix or two. Drugs, booze and four-wheel rendezvous just don’t seem to mix.